This is the End

Today we were supposed to have our final show of the season, but the transmitter was not working making doing a show impossible. I had a chance to say goodbye to Tom.

But as I sat in the studio talking with Tom I came to the conclusion, that I am hanging up my headphones and turning off the mic. I am calling my career as a radio show host to be over with.

I have a lot of respect for those who do radio shows on a daily basis as I know how much work it is.

But I decided to leave for a lot of different reasons. They include time commitments, priorities, and passion.

I have a lot of part-time jobs that I work. The radio show was one that I would spend a couple hours in the studio each week and a couple hours outside of the studio. I was finding it harder and harder to put in the time necessary to have a high quality show.

Do to a shift of priorities and passion I don't make the time to put into the show. I know I have felt really bad about the shows I have done. I think I had a couple good ones this last season, but for the most part, frankly, they sucked.

I was not proud of what I did with the show. I don't want to put out sub par shows. I found today that while talking to Tom my passion to rant and rave about things is gone. I am not sure where it went and why it is gone.

I have a feeling that some of it is the stress over doing poor quality shows. And worse yet, I have some issues with my main job. It has nothing to do with me, but the ownership. We are in an unstable time as we were bought out, but the company is changing its focus from the product I have worked on for four years. That is not a bad thing, but I don't know if I am part of this new focus.

Due to that, I am worried that in the next couple months I may not be able to fulfill my obligations to the radio station -- something I take seriously.

Until I can find the fire in my gut and the willingness to put in the hours necessary to have a great show, I am going ...

This is Scotty of The PES... good bye.